Moods

A little "end of March Break" attitude update...a follow up to Requiring Guidance (From Monday)

1. No more American Yahoo groups. I'll miss you but I'm not enjoying you right now. This didn't work so well. I did cut back but I can't seem to stop myself from checking. Nothing like watching the adoption dreams of fellow PAP's go up in smoke to set a person on edge.
2. A few good trashy novels. Bought 3, read half of 1. I have the attention span of a gnat.
3. A few bright sunbeams. I'm into this. The sun is my newest drug of choice. I'm sitting in a warm sunbeam right this very moment. I can't wait to spend recess or lunch break in the school's Butterfly Garden. Here's hoping I can sit there quietly and contemplate my baby's photo some time this spring.
4. Lots of dog walking. Big hairy dog with long belly hair does not go well with temperatures above freezing and sandy/salty sidewalks but we are getting out to mostly snow covered park areas several times each day to blow away the cobwebs of despair...
5. Possible nephew cuddling. I put this off in hopes I can meet up with baby M on Easter weekend. Could only pull a one nighter this week so I gave it up in lieu on 2 or 3 nights next weekend.
6. And a waiting mommies dinner on Friday. See below for my dessert choice of the evening. Worth EVERY.SINGLE.CALORIE. and I practically licked the bowl (but not quite).

CHOCOLATE MOLTEN LAVA CAKE 5.99

Divine chocolate cake, enrobed in chocolate and filled with a dark chocolate truffle.

Served wickedly warm, surrounded by vanilla frozen yogurt,

and topped with whipped cream and a cherry.

Delightfully decadent!

Overall I'm better rested and mostly sane after my March Break. I'm not going to lie, even in my worst case scenario adoption timeline I was home with Benjaminh for the third term of this school year. Now I am just hopeful that I will not be starting another new school year in September waiting for a referral. That would be 3 Septembers of waiting.

I signed on with the agency in July 2006.

I'd like a referral by early July 2008.

That will give the agency a couple of months plus a bit more to get me to Vietnam and back before all of my new documents expire...again...

2 years for a program predicted to be 6-9 months or FASTER (if you were open to a boy).

I'm being generous here.

What other option do I have???