Let me off the rollercoaster please!

Never, in my wildest dreams,
did I expect this journey to be so very difficult.
I wasn't looking for the easy road.
The adoption agency, from the get-go,
has said the Vietnam Program is not for the faint of heart.
But still,
every day the wait for referral seems to eat away at me just a little more.
The agency time lines that are never met grate on my nerves just a bit harder.
The "Have your heard anything?" questions become increasingly repetitive.
The roller coaster induced knot in my stomach grows a tad larger as I live my own adoption induced angst and the angst of every other waiting parent I've grown to love.

When a fellow waiting parent receives referral news my heart soars high with joy.
Only moments later it plunges back down to earth with the news of yet another delay for that dear Hai Doung toddler, waiting nearly half of his life in an orphanage.

To whom it may concern,
Let me off the coaster already...preferably with a little one in my arms.
Thanks.