Wow...time flies

2 years ago today I went to the principal's office

after a very long day at school.

And a very long school staff meeting.

I sat at her desk.

Logged in to my email.

And in that office,

surrounded by some of my dearest friends,

my life changed forever.

The sun shines brighter.

Rainy days are for puddle jumping.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,

sung just so,

with air guitar accompaniment

brings tears to my eyes.

I like to watch the world through my new lens...Ben.

I love my job but long for home while I'm there.

2 years ago, my blog entry from Sept. 2, 2008.

I have been blessed with a referral for a sweet baby boy that I will call Benjaminh. After what has at times seemed like forever and ever my turn to be a mommy has arrived. I am blessed.

Benjaminh is living in an orphanage in a Vietnamese province outside of Hanoi. He rests comfortably in a green hammock with his arms stretched up and his tiny little toes curled. He stares straight into the camera, straight into my soul. He is beautiful. Everything I could possibly dream and more. Chubby little cheeks and fat little ankles.

As some of you know I have been doubly blessed as real life friends travelled to Benjaminh's home in June. They asked at that time which baby might be mine. They stroked his little legs and held his little hand. They took photos, just in case. 12 photos in total. I have, because of their kind and loving investigative work, 12 photos of my sweet baby when he was soooo new. Perhaps 2 1/2 weeks old. This is a gift that will be with my son as he grows up. Photos of a tiny baby Ben. Stories of a very protective and loving nanny. A gift I could not have given my son without their help. I hope I can pay that priceless favour forward very soon.

I'm going to go stare at 13 beautiful photos of my son now.

Those of you still searching for your children or waiting for the child you have already found...please know you are in my thoughts all of the time.


From where I sit right now it seems to be true.
The wait is really worth it.
Really.

Time flies...

I still stare at his pictures because he is so beautiful..

 But mostly I stare at his sweet face,

full of expression,

engaged, interested, alert.

And when he reaches for me (and when he doesn't) 

I hold him tight. 

 As often as I can.

These toddler days are numbered...